Who am I to fight with God?

I just read the first journal entry I ever wrote. Back in 2005...

It was about my LIST OF NEVERS and how I have never seen Star Wars.

While a few "nevers" have been crossed off in the passed three years, Star Wars prevails at #7.

Go Star Wars!


*My tummy hurts. BLAH.

Janna

mood: blah

I graduate in 1.5 months.

holy crap.

I haven't decided if this is for the best. Confrontation shows no fruit.

In 2008 I will avoid all conflict. No drama.

All you need is love, right?

J

Merry Christmas.

mood: lonely

Everyone has left town.

Is it bad that it is Christmas Eve and I love that I am sitting in a big empty house by myself?

I will make my way over to my parents house later today, but for now I am loving the silence and solitude.

Merry Christmas.


P.S.
John got me a book for my birthday... and a hot air balloon ride. We will be flying in the New Year. I will post pictures for sure.


Janna

mood: relaxed

I miss this.

mood: bored

I can't count how many times in the last couple months I've thought to myself "This would make an awesome LJ entry" and then I didn't.

Maybe I will start again soon.

I am ecstatic to announce I found $20 in one of my old high school graduation cards today. This is probably the most awesome thing to come of moving out of my parents house. I have been sorting and tossing through 21 years of clutter and it's taken me darn near a month to get out of here. After my great discovery I whisked through stacks and stacks of old cards in search of "treasure" only to discover two things:

1. I wish people would date their cards.
2. Old greeting cards make me cry.

Think about pictures... We save them to preserve memories. But how much more powerful are words and letters... In my search I came acrossed numerous birthday cards from my grandmother. Sweet, sweet cards.
When you first get a birthday card you quickly read through it and what, shake it for money? The message gets lost in the excitement of opening the next present and what do you really care when you're young. Now that my grandmother has passed away I re-read the cards and letters.

And I just cried.

It's one thing to see a picture of her face but to hear her voice again through her letters and how proud she is of me... I cried.

I hope you guys save your birthday cards. Read em'. It might be the only way to speak to someone from your past.

Oh and date things.

mood: nostalgic tags: cards, family, grandma, moving

My life is so ridiculous.

I was asked to go get coffee and breakfast for my managers the other day AT MCDONALDS.

I hate McDonalds. Alot.

I also hate that I arrived at 10:25, waited an eternity in line, and pulled up to find they stop serving breakfast at 10:30 and it was now 10:32.


SDKJgfnszakeje8j!!11%$^%$567%!!1


The lady hands me my coffee(x4) in one of those cup holders. Apparently she didn't put them in securely because at the first slight bump ALL FOUR COFFEES LEAPED OF FAITH UPSIDE DOWN ON MY FLOOR AND THEN I WENT OVER A CURB, INTO BUSHES, AND HIT A TREE.

My life is sooo ridiculous.

J-booty.

tags: davids bridal, hit, life sucks, tree

"Okay, so this is a
VALENTINE'S DAY
card. And yes, I know all of the assumptions
that go along with giving said card.
But don't worry.
This isn't one of those mushy gushy,
you're-the-only-one-for-me, my-life-began-when-i-met-you
type cards. This is just a,
"hey, you're cool and I kinda like you" card,
minus all the I-wanna-have-your-babies stuff.
I'm not saying you're my "soul mate"
or "my one true love." I don't wanna make you run
down the aisle, count the stars in the sky,
or clutch a box of tisssues in your hand
as you read this. All I want to say is, "you're neat
and I think you're starting to grow on me."

That's what the card says; I got him a big sunflower.

Yep, I have a Valentine this year, and I have Valentines DAY plans! (((PICNIC!)))

YAY!

Love,
Janna

mood: chipper

I really wish I had something interesting to say.

Dear year of 2006,
You were most likely the most dissapointing year of the 21 years I have walked this earth. I never want to see you again. Goodbye year of 2006!
Sincerely,
Janna
P.S.
Because I am nice... I MIGHT follow this letter up with your better days of the year, but no promises.

In other news!

My 21st bday is in 6 days. Any suggestions on where I should go or what my first alcoholic beverage should be? ;p

mood: blank

Dear sir,
You're just not that into me.
Leave me alone!
-Janna

I have decided it's time.
I am 20 years old and I am going to apply for RealWorld.
hah.

BASICALLY...

I quit at Life.

mood: confused

Happiness is not a reward,
it's a consequence.

Lucky Numbers 33,17,28,45,36, ***4*** (TODAY)

<3 it feels good to be a girl again.
-J

(ALSO: NY was amazing.)

mood: giddy

I mean I am only a quarter Irish... I can't be that lucky...
but I am.

So I got to work and they said they had a drawing for some prize and I won, and I was excted I was getting a candy basket or stupid toy (our usual "treasure box" prizes) but no it wasss

a $50 american express card.

woop. more spending money for NY.

BTW. still need a fake ID. asap. Please? :( Everyone I know that looks like me, is younger than me.

I leave for NY thursday! By myself. Im scuuured!

-Janna

mood: bouncy

"Each bird likes his own nest best."

7 35 18 10 4 36

I don't even know what that implies...

I got a hott hair cut, and I'm pretty sure i'm dying it darker... dark dark... emo dark.

ALSO. I need a "Fake" ID, which is really a REAL ID, but a 21 year old ID... an it has to look like me...
You have to be 21 everywhere in NY.

-J

mood: chipper

Movies ruin lives.

My life.

I need to stop waiting for my life to turn into some amazing movie...
I do realize I have opportunities here and there that I don't take because they aren't exactly Janna-perfect...
but I realized today, some people lack any opportunity...


that'll be one scary leap... I don't know what I am doing with my life.

RANDOM thought:
Apply for O-Team, or witness to young children in Jamaica.

I'm torn with alot of things lately...

mood: confused

So, we are doing this thing with the youth at our church "The 40 day challenge"
(A program implemented after Columbine, in memory of Cassie Bernall)
Anyways the kid's fast something they really like for 40 days.
I kinda help out soo I have to participate too.

what did I give up?
MySpace ANNNND Facebook.

This is horrible, what am I gonig to do in my free time its only been a week. Im dying.
On the other hand I get alot more accomplished by NOT going to these sites, which is also good.

We'll see if I keep it up.

Animal Planet is cruel; They showed this adorable baby hippo on a show last night and how it was cute and new to the world and exploring, then 14 days after it's birth it is eaten by a crocadile, as I observed. I wanted to cry.

-JANNA-BOOTY

mood: bored

I applied to Teen Vogue Fashion University; a three day conference of classes to learn about marketing, branding, Ad/Pr, photography and design from fashion professionals:
Armani X
Dooney and Burke
Levi's
Tiffany
Juicy
Mary-Kate and Ashley's designers
Derek Lam
ETC ETC ETC

*I GOT IN!!!!!!!1tdjhskrtjnhksrthnrst

I get to see OKGo! the first night and a fashion show the last day.
Plus i get tons of free stuff, for example a Dooney and Burke Bag full of free crap.
PLUS I get a tour of the Vogue office and meet all the editors! I am pretty excited!

-Jannuhhhh!

I just registered and bought my ticket. I'm GOING!!1!!

mood: excited

I had to jump on the bandwagon.

mood: crazy